15/2/2019 0 Comments
I'm quite a thoughtful thinky person, so these practices help me bypass my critical mind, so there is there is a freedom in it, accessing other parts of yourself, and the emotional qualities.
The other thing I did at that time was we had to do work experience, and I didn't know what I wanted to be, but I chose art therapy as my experience. Luckily there was a woman who was doing a training day for counsellors in art therapy, and I was invited along.
One of the exercises was to draw inside a circle your inner world and draw outside the circle your outer world. It was just doodling: a colour, a texture, a scribble... and then we did another one and it was a group drawing with awareness to how we approach the edges of other people's drawing on the paper.
I think from there on I was freer about the marks that I made, not so precious about trying to draw a specific thing, just exploring how I expresses emotion.
What am I feeling right now? If that was a colour what would that be?
What sensation am I feeling right now? How can I make a line that expresses that sensation?
And then as time went on... I think ok, where else do I not feel free? Where else do I feel a bit stuck?
So 4-5 years ago I was too self-conscious to dance alone in a room. So I started doing 'Contact Improvisation' which means dancing with other people and staying into contact with them... and it looks very contemporary but it's really just following the movement and seeing what happens next, so it's very similar.
And this year I've moved to voice. Because I'm good at responding after a period of time but responding in the moment, I tend to hang back. In terms of but in terms of really expressing my heart I've always held back. So I've started improvising even.... first it was no words, just sounds, but I can even say I've freed that up enough to be able to start singing a stream of consciousness song. Which is just weird (and crazy and brave). But yeah, I put those on Instagram increasingly.
There is just something to be said for it, and it's a way to make a start when you don't know what you want to do next.